Just having one of those days....

[anonymuse]

Yesterday I was so happy....for about 2 hours. I got an email about a contest I had entered and I won $50!! I was pretty wiped out as I hadn't slept much the night before. But you know how nice it is to hear about extra money when you're flat broke. One of those "woo hoo's"--money for highlights, no---money to pay for my pre-bk counseling. LOL

I go to the chiropractor and as I'm walking in there, I'm feeling my pockets and checking my purse--I had locked my keys in my car!! Argh!! It was just enough to set me off. The doc said to hang on and he'd help me after his last patient. The tears started and just wouldn't stop--I hit that wall of frustration. Do you know that it's impossible to find metal hangers anymore??? Instead, had to call the locksmith. And, of course, it's 2 minutes after 6:00 so they charge for after hours fees--$50. (I just called my insurance company and they will cover it.) It just made me sick that this guy gets all that money to drive two blocks, blow up a little pressure cuff thingy, and pops open my door in 2 minutes. Took him longer to write up the bill than to open the door.

Then it was rushing off to the pharmacy to make sure I made it in time before they closed to get an Rx that I was out of and needed for the morning. Ends up $150 in copays (there's another with a $50 copay that I didn't get). And I really needed something to drink--right there. I wanted milk so I could take some pills and I'm thinking if I should pay 99 cents for a bottle of milk when 15 miles down the road I'll be home.

Ever just see dollar signs tacked onto whatever you're doing????

I went to bed early, but now I'm still wiped out. My neck's hurting but I can't take anything for it since I can hardly stay awake here at work. With sleep apnea, yes, I literally can nod off at my desk. I even went to the break room for 20 minutes (talk about a really early lunch) and set my alarm for a "power nap" to give my neck a break. It gave me about 10 minutes of relief afterwards. Coca Cola and chocolate are doing nothing for me, and I just want to go get a blankie and curl up and go to sleep.

Just one of those days where I want to scream: "Stop the world, I want to get off!"

[jane taylor]

Sending you hugs and good wishes!!! Hope your day gets better! I have had thoughts about running away from home again, but I guess I'm too old for that, besides being too broke!!

Hang in there and I hope you get to feeling better real soon.

jane

[AMISLANDER]

Hope You're Feeling Better...

...I think the hump day yesterday got a lot of people!!!!

I, myself, had a 1/2 day and went outside to find...B]A FLAT TIRE!!![[/B]

I knew it was coming, but it was a back tire instead of a front tire...and I've been airing up the front once a week...so..I went home had a few drinks & blew it totally off...too darn hot to deal with.

BUT, today, I too must deal with it...friend loaned me his car, going to switch out the spare & put it on...friend is helping me w/AAA in case I need the tow...(see $$$ and you know I'm putting AAA on my list of things which are a must)...talk about saving $$$ with the milk? I know exactly what you mean...!!!!

Feel better...sometimes it's just better to not even get upset, but you do feel better after you burst & spurt, ya know?

[DisneyGirl]

Here's hoping today is a much better day!!!!!

[anonymuse]

I gotta tell you--if I'm feeling this way and part of it is NOT PMS, then I should wear a sign on my back forewarning anyway not to come around me this weekend!!

[robivi3]

Dis, love the avatar. Thank God that 50 was there for you! But folks, we all have bad days, and good ones. I just hope I live a good remainder (many years) and never see another 9/11. I believe in Christ, the Rapture (pre or post, i am a pre boy) and i know certain things must happen but i just hope that we never ever see a day like that again.

[lrprn]

Anon, I wish we were sitting in a couple of comfy chairs each sipping a stiff drink....wait, no, that costs money....sipping a glass of ice water while we vent and vent and VENT until there's some release from the sadness, frustration and anger always lurking, always ready to overcome the body and mind when some small insignificant thing doesn't go our way.

Sometimes I feel like I've become two different people - the one most of the world sees who appears to be doing just fine, and the other one who behind closed doors or in the car cries at the drop of the hat, dreads opening the mail every day (and that's after filing), and watches every single penny we spend with a tenacity that makes me wonder if I'm not showing signs of obsessive-compulsive disorder.

If I could take on some of your pain to give you a bit less to deal with right now, I surely would. Hang in there - tomorrow is likely to be a better day (and don't forget we are here for you if it isn't).

[SinkingFast]

and watches every single penny we spend with a tenacity that makes me wonder if I'm not showing signs of obsessive-compulsive disorder.

My daughters are doing that for me. One of them has become my "Conscience Fairy" and the other has dubbed herself my "Reality Fairy". Whenever we're out shopping, and I even think about falling off the wagon, either the Conscience Fairy or the Reality Fairy steps in and won't let me buy something.

We adhere to the "Minny's 24 Hour Rule". Get outa the store. Go home and think about it. Over night. Almost every time, it's not important enough to actually go back and buy.

And sometimes it's the "24 Minute Rule". If we make it to the check-out at the store without buying it, that's the 24 Minute Rule.

And then there's the "24 Second Rule". We pick it up. Fondle it. Look at it. Lust over it. Know we can't have it. Put it back, and move on. That's the 24 Second Rule.

The whole time the Reality Fairy and the Conscience Fairy are saying NO!! NO!! NO!!

It's like grief, Anon. Everyone goes thru it in their own time. I've been there, done that and now I don't do it any more. I gave it all UP. I'm letting someone else carry the load for me now. I can't tell you what a sense of peace I feel since having done that. And we have lots of people praying for us. I can feel that too.

[nervousSC]

Anon, I am SO sorry you're having a bad day.......I too often see those money signs everywhere, sometimes it seems like it's one step forward and two steps back! I'm sending you good thoughts and (((HUGS))))!

[Minnymouth]

Its amazing how the $ sign is attached to EVERYTHING in our lives....... and its even more noticable during the bankruptcy process.

When we have money, we never think about what something cost..... at least most of us don't.....

They say money is the "root of all evil"...... nawwwwwww, just the lack of it.... now THAT can bring a grown man to his knees real quick.......

Everything we look at has a price tag attached to it somewhere down the line......... our homes, autos, clothing, food, electronics.... etc......
Even the paint on the walls in your home have a price tag on them......

I've heard folks say "air" is free and "advice" is free.............. NOT SO..... if you need oxygen (you pay for it) If you need legal advice, medical advice, mental advice (you pay for it)......

About the only thing "free in this world" is the love of family and friends..... and sometimes even that has a price tag that goes with it...........

I sent a friend to the store the other nite - he spent $50.00 and was AMAZED that he didn't buy anything!!!!!! DUH, what did he expect for $50 bucks............. Groceries for a month?????...... And this man was 42 years old......... how ironic is that!!!

I've noticed that if your "poor" in money, you are "rich" in love and family.....
But even then the lack of money can break up the best of marriages and families.....

Since bankruptcy I now have 2 lists of items.............. Items I Want and Items I need!!!!
And believe me, when I say the "Items I need" list always stays on top....... and has priority......

I cried a lot during my bankruptcy, all the things that happened to me that were "unexpected" took their toll on my life..... I stayed sick, had panic attacks, asthma attacks, etc......

But I survived it all, and am stronger than ever now..... I DID GOOD!!!!

So all of you still "hanging in there"........... stay with it, ride the tide as it hits, and KNOW there is a big light at the end of the tunnel and the greatest relief you can possibly feel when its all over......

My thoughts,

[Minnymouth]

Sinkingfast,

Yep, that 24 hour Rule is a good thing,

Also I like your 24 minute Rule and 24 second Rule..........

I too have play that game with myself in the stores........

Works for me................... and I'm so glad it does.....