Am I the only one with horrible anxiety? r/o

[denisejohn65]

kpower...I really like your post.....I feel like that a lot of the times.....it can be hard for others to relate....peoples brains and the way they think and handle things are all different.Thanks

[peelwonder]

I have to force myself to eat.........I have to make sure that I eat something everyday. I never want to deal with BK again.....I just want to get through this well and with a discharge.

I was the same way at first, I had trouble eating and was worrying all the time. I actually had the doctor up my prescription of Prozac for obsessive compulsive and that seems to have helped.

In addition I stopped worrying because we have nothing to worry about. What I mean by that is we have no money or property. We have the typical assests a family of 4 has but nothing extravagent, thus no need to worry. You should hopefully feel the same and try not to worry about it as much.

[denisejohn65]

Yes......but not like this

[eddiep]

denise
did you have anxiety before you started this?

[LuciluS]

Although we retained our Attorney late last Sept. & quit paying all but 1 credit card the same month, I was nervous, tense, edgy for just a couple of weeks.

Since 3/14/05, day of the accident, which deemed me 100% disabled, I've had 7 surgeries. in 1005 Dh had 2 stents put in near his heart. In 2/07, at the age of 50, he had 5 bypass surgery & in 6/07 had a pacemaker implanted. He was off work 7 1/2 months. Almost lost him this past April as his organs were shutting down, blood pressure bottomed & he wasn't receiving enough blood flow to his brain. 4 1/2 weeks later, he was back to work. O & Dh had a 360 degree spinal fusion in 11/03 which was a 10 hr. operation & reguired a Vascular Surgeon along with a Neurosurgery.

When you go through Major Medical Crisis after another, we've come to realize it's just part of life. Although we both have medical insurance, our prescriptions, alone, cost $500 and our medical expenses range from $12,000 to $15,000 in the last 3 yrs. This year, we will surpass that amount.

We will be filing in 9/09 and I update our expenses every time I pay a bill. So, all I will need will be an itemization of Dh's 6 mth. paychecks for Mar - Aug from his employer.

My only concern is the 341 hearing. I will be on a scooter and it takes time for the security people to run that machine all over my scooter. Plus with Dh having a Pacemaker and me a Spinal Cord Stimulator we cannot go through the metal detectors so will have to be hand searched. I know this is an ordeal as we go through it every time we fly.

As for the whole BK process, DH and I are not worried. He said to me the other day 'as long as have you, our shih tzu & a roof over our head, I'm am happy!'.

We just know Life is Too Short to worry about the what Ifs. Our philosophy is; We Take One Day At A Time. Challenges (don't like the word obstacles) are just that and we've learned to make the most of what is given to us.

Luci

[denisejohn65]

Thanks...you made me LOL and that has been hard to do these days!!

[tinfoilhat]

How is everyone else doing????

I'm doing probably average.
It looks like your boyfriend needs to bring you some fudge more often.

he bought me fudge

Thats your prescription xanax and fudge--works everytime.

[denisejohn65]

I have to force myself to eat.........I have to make sure that I eat something everyday. I never want to deal with BK again.....I just want to get through this well and with a discharge.

[liz417]

Gosh you guys, I feel so bad for you (Op and Denise). I KNOW this BK stuff can be stressful, but try to deep breathe every once in awhile. We all know what you are going through, we've been there...scared, coming to this board every night, reading everything, but you are going to realize that "what's going to happen, is going to happen" you can't change it, you can only deal with it as it unfolds...

My best and biggest hugs~

[denisejohn65]

Hi all......last night was bad......I all of a sudden woke at 3am jumped out of bed and was so hot....It was weird. I started taking xanax... I have 1 mg and I cut it 1/4s I took a half before bed with my trazadone....I don't know....then I could hardly go back to sleep. After getting out of bed I was just so nervous.....thoughts racing about this BK...then I talked myself down...and the guy justbroke on here seems to help a lot with my questions and helps me feel better too.Afer talking myself down in the am is when I took the 1/4 of xanax. How is everyone else doing????

[Amy26]

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time Denise. I know how nerve wracking it is to have to deal with "official" issues and scrutiny. Makes you wonder if you forgot to cross a T or dot an I. But I've just learned that you can't worry about things you can't control. It is frustrating that you got picked for the audit, but you sent your stuff in and now just need to relax till you have something to worry about. I know its hard to do but you will save your hair in the long run!

I've actually gained weight from all this... lol. Its expensive to eat healthy and I was already overweight to begin with. So, having to eat hamburger helper and ramen noodles isn't really helping my waist line!

[denisejohn65]

Did you do a 7? I filed and still feel no better.......I got picked for a random audit...I sent eveything in. They should get it Monday. Still feeling anxious......nervous....wonder if it will ever let up??? I hate feeling this way....I don't feel like myself anymore.

[bankruptsee]

I'll be filed tomorrow. I feel relieved that we've gotten the ball rolling. We just want to put this behind us and start living a cash-only life as much as possible.

[denisejohn65]

Thank you.....at times it can be a bit too much for me and BF. He is so good to me....and he bought me fudge for tonight. Cuz I have not been eating good. Anyone else out there lost a lot of weight?????? Stomach aches?? You know....the nasty cramps and such???? Ewwww

[fyi2]

Take a breath...blow it out wayyy out.. squeeze your fists to let that energy go somewhere.. is there something you should be doing right now? can you do it? if not ...take another breath blow it out wayyyyy out and try to accept that you cannot
... sigh...