I am in trouble.

[AngelinaCat]

Another update: Got a letter in the mail today and I qualified for Medicaid. My hospitalized bills are covered for Nov and Dec. I am so relieved by this. Just had a question though. Being I qualify for Medicaid someone said I should now apply for SS benefits. Is this true?

Still waiting to hear from disability. Should be any time now to see if I qualify for that.

Angel7821, I cannot say, but it is my understanding that once you are diagnosed with any form of cancer, you qualify and will get SS Disability.

Are you confusing Disability with SS? I think you may be. Double-check on that. There is standard Social Security Benefits. There is also Social Security Disability Benefits, which I think you qualify for.

There is also another Social Security Benefit [I think.] that my MIL qualified for, but she did not get her full benefit because she either was not old enough or had not paid enough into the system while she was employed.

Anyone with a username with 'Angel' in it, should have to be going through these things! {{{{{HUGGSS}}}}

[angel7821]

Another update: Got a letter in the mail today and I qualified for Medicaid. My hospitalized bills are covered for Nov and Dec. I am so relieved by this. Just had a question though. Being I qualify for Medicaid someone said I should now apply for SS benefits. Is this true?

Still waiting to hear from disability. Should be any time now to see if I qualify for that.

[angel7821]

UPDATE: Just got discharged from the hospital again today. I went in Thursday last week 3 days after my last radiation treatment and it really knocked me on my ass. Wanted to die I felt that bad. I was severely dehydrated, depressed etc. I have decided I am not even going to think about the bill anymore. It has plummeted out of being paid off for years and it is not worth stressing myself out about it.

[dmc-2008]

That's a lot but start a min plan with them and then in 7 years do a 7, 7 in 7! That is your plan! Fight this thing, medical cost are rediculous and nobody can afford them! Hugs

[angel2002]

Hi Angel7821,

I just wanted to chime in and say how incredibly sorry I am that this has happened to you. Just keep thinking positive thoughts towards getting healthy. You've done everything right and just keep at it. As a suggestion perhaps you can see if your family and friends could organize a fundraiser to help with the medical bills. Worst case is maybe the financial department will help set up a payment plan for the bills. You might be paying on them for a while but the most important thing is to get yourself healthy first and foremost. I would definitely look into a support group to help with the stress and emotion. I'll keep you in my prayers that you have a speedy recovery and that things go in your favor.

[angel7821]

Wowser! Just got my latest medical bill and the total is close to 98,000. Just think a little over a month ago I was debt free. I am so heart sick over this I can not even begin to express my feelings. I will never be able to pay that bill. I don't see how the financial dept at the hospital won't just wipe this out for me. Please let this all work out for me. I am crying so hard right cause I worked so hard to get out of debt with my Chapter 13 and now look what happened. Everything is such a mess.

[angel7821]

No dmc I don't have my own therapist. Never needed one or so I thought. I thought about it and I am going to find my own person to talk to. Even if for now just a church group to get together with. I have my entire family that I can call anyone at anytime doesn't matter what time of day it is. I have girlfriends who say the same thing. Even neighbors are willing to reach out. So I know I am not alone in this by far. I realize none of them are psychologists but right now I don't think I need one of those. Just gonna keep taking it one day at a time and I will get thru this. Whatever today throws at me I will handle it.

[dmc-2008]

Angel I would feel the same way. Here you are with dx and new drs and medicines and no doubt lots of new things. Do you have your own therapist. I would tell them thank you for the suggestion then find your own support group. There are lots and you don't have to go with theirs or the first one you interview! Good luck and stay strong!!

[angel7821]

Wasn't really a good day yesterday. Did not like what I had to hear from the drs. On Dec 31 I will be getting another shot in the stomach to help repair the bones that have shattered In my back. Forgot what they called it but I don't think it is a steroid shot.

then a month from now they want to start chemo. That is one think I wanted to avoid if I could. For some reason I am scared to death of chemo. I guess I have memories from the past of my dad going thru it and seeing how sick and wasted away he had become before he died. I know many advances have been made since then cause that was like 23 yrs ago but still that stays in a person's mind.

Then the part that really bothers me is the head dr wants me to schedule appts with psychologists and I am supposed to just feel comfortable with these strangers from the get go an open up to them. I know they just want me to come in and visit with them at these appts and see how I am feeling and probably just get to know me better but it is darn hard to open up to someone you don't know. I want to do this when I am ready not when a dr thinks I should. I am feeling pressured.

So lots to think about.

[Sammie]

Angel, I just came in today and saw your post. I cannot add anything except that you will be in my daily prayers and know that God will give you the strength to beat this. sammie

[tobee43]

my fingers too!!! and feel better soon!

[dmc-2008]

Crossed fingers!

[angel7821]

Update: Got a call from the financial dept of the hospital and that all my paperwork has been submitted for review. They said I would get a letter stating it is under review to see if the hospitalization will be written off or not. So now I just wait again.

[angel7821]

Sounds like I have to wait until I get a letter from disability saying whether I am approved or not before anything can be done. I do qualify for Medicaid but my state did not expand the program. This is all totally new to me and I can only go by what people are telling me what to do. So I guess I just wait to hear from disability first.

[angel7821]

I have been in the hospital for 6 days now. There is a woman who works in the financial aid dept that is helping me with all this. will update as I know more but so far sounds good.