Sad Day

[Granny]

Today is a sad today and my anxiety is running high. I hate feeling this way and don't know how to deal with it except to try to sleep through it, but I know if I lay my head down, I will start to cry and I don't want to cry anymore, I've already cried a river. It's the 10th anniversary of the death of my oldest daughter. I still miss her so much. She was my pride and joy, my first born, and I don't care what anyone says, the first born is always special.

I have so much to do today, and I don't want to do any of it. I don't want to do anything but curl up in a little ball. God how I miss her. She was so mature for her age, so thoughtful and caring but oh how she hated her baby sister. She would have a fit if she knew what the youngest has done to us, but oh how she would love these two that I am raising.

Those of you who have babies, give them a hug because you don't really know how long you may have with them. It may be for the rest of your life or it may be only for a day.

Leslie, Momma loves you.

[FreshLikeADaisy]

I think it is beautiful that you honor her memory so, even though it is hard and sad and would be easier to put out of mind if you could. With someone to remember her as you do, she will never truly be gone. My thoughts and best wishes are with you today -- boy, I wish I had a granny like you!

[whatamess]

HUGS GRANNY!!
I cant imagine how awful it must be to lose a child. I have no idea what to say really except from all Ive read you did everthing you could and have taken on so much with the grandchildren..you are a superb being.
I hope you feel better soon.
WAM

[woohoogirl]

Hugs Granny.

[chpxiii]

I'm so sorry, Granny. Many hugs.

[DisneyGirl]

I'm very sorry Granny! Many (((hugs))) to you!

[guzzie]

sorry granny....hold the memories and its ok to cry......leslie is looking over you......God bless you.....guzzie

[scaredneko]

/hugs God Bless

[lrprn]

Leslie will live on forever in your memory, Granny. Missing someone you love so much and who should not have left this earth so soon is one of life's most difficult trials. She was a very special daughter just like you are a very special mom and grandma.

"Human pain does not let go of its grip at one point in time. Rather, it works its way out of our consciousness over time. There is a season of sadness. A season of anger. A season of tranquility. A season of hope." - Robert Veninga

Today is your season of sadness and anger. Your season of hope and tranquility will eventually come as well. Hugs to you on this most difficult day.

[DivorceRuinedMe]

I'm so sorry Granny. I can't even imagine losing one of my babies. You are in my thoughts... ((( HUGS )))

[Bandit]

What though the radiance
which was once so bright
Be now for ever taken from my sight,
Though nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendour in the grass,
of glory in the flower;
We will grieve not, rather find
Strength in what remains behind;
In the primal sympathy
Which having been must ever be;
In the soothing thoughts that spring
Out of human suffering;
In the faith that looks through death,
In years that bring the philosophic mind.

William Wordsworth

That is the only thing that ever makes any sense to me & all that I know to put. Sorry, Granny.

[robivi3]

Hits home. Nothing but hugs.

[$$only4ever]

Granny,

My heart aches for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

[MomIcantFindmy]

((HUGS)) My heart is with you.